Hello everyone,
So wow, I specifically remember starting this blog and stating that I would be updating it every week. I'm fired. I will tell you this... school, internship, a husband, and a ton of homework will keep you busy. I might have under estimated my ability to be productive. Moving on...
School is wonderful!. Its challenging and amazing. Baylor is everything I though it would be. My teachers are so thoughtful and kind...it's unnerving. On to the less fluffy stuff. With the great comes the bad. I am learning swiftly that the field of social work is not always about helping people. I work in an agency with adolescents. EVERY SINGLE DAY I see someone go home that shouldn't be. Today was especially tough. Maybe that's why I chose to write. We had to send a boy home (because his insurance ran out) that is destined to go home, get loaded, and do something dangerous. During a conversation I asked this boy..."when is a time you remember being happy?" His response "I can't ever remember being happy." It broke my heart. This profession is pressing and not for the weak. I'm growing thicker skin, but with that come intolerance. (Just being honest).
I have a hard time listening to acquaintances and people I know complain about things that are so trivial and ridiculous. "I cant do this and I have to do this...blah...blah...blah" Be grateful you have a home, a healthy kid, a job, and food. Working with the less fortunate and individuals with real struggles will make you hard. Don't get me wrong I have my fair share of complaints, we all do. However, when you make it a point to talk about your life everyday on Facebook and complain about what you do and don't have, I invite you to live a day in the shoes of some of the kids I see.
I am one month shy of finishing my first semester. I have grown so much. I'm more wise and a lot less materialistic. I'm trying to focus on the positive these days and not let the small stuff bother me. If you know me well, that is probably funny to you. Baby steps people... Baby steps. I'm not making any more promises. Hopefully you guys get an update within the next couple of weeks and not months. Fingers Crossed :) I'll leave you all with a small quote...
"Don't judge each day by the harvest you reap but by the seeds that you plant."
